Monday, August 15, 2016

The Sabbath is a Refuge from Daily Life

I have a game that I play...avoid speaking in church. It's not that I absolutely hate speaking in church, I just enjoy listening and thinking about what is being said more. I do enjoy the writing part, thinking deeply, trying to figure out what I can say that may or may not influence someone for the better. I failed at playing that game last week, so yesterday I spoke in church. Here's what I had to say: :)

Back in high school, I was in an AP art class. I was working on an 8x10 drawing on black paper of lilies. using prismacolor pencils for the first time. With these pencils, you can get the colors to blend using a layering technique. You build up layers of colors and blend the colors as you go. I was pretty close to finishing the piece, but I was having trouble with one of the sections of the flower with getting the color just right, so as I layered the colors, I began to notice little black specks on the drawing. So, I would just add more layers to try to cover them up, but what I didn't realize was the the black specks were from the paper as it began to come apart. Before I knew it, I had drawn a hole into this drawing and there was no fixing it. Obviously I was angry and frustrated with myself because I should have realized what was happening, but I had to start completely over with this drawing. If I had paid closer attention to what what was happening on my paper, I could have probably stopped, taken a break from what I was doing, and figured out a way to prevent further damage to the drawing.

Life can be very similar. We can be trying to do our best to be productive and make something beautiful out of our situation; we can work and keep working, adding more layers to our lives, but before we realize it, we have worn ourselves thin. We exhaust ourselves to the point where we can no longer function properly and the only way for us to get back on track is to start over, and start fresh.

This past week has been all over the place for me. I was a math tutor and then we had our epic coloring party for FHE on Monday. Tuesday, I did a bunch of landscaping. Wednesday, I taught my friend, Shirley (who is 90 ish) some things in Microsoft word. And if any of you have taught an older person how to use technology, you understand why that is so tiring. Thursday, I worked two jobs and then celebrated my grandma's birthday. Friday, I got a phone call from my mom, who was at work, asking if I could come teach her and the new manager how to use a program on their computer that I had never used before. So I not only had to teach myself how to use the program, but I had to teach them as well...and their old too :) and I went to the Weber Co. fair. Saturday, I went to work, baked brownies, cleaned the church, and did what any sensible country girl in the area would do and I went to the demolition derby.

I'm sure I'm not the only one who has had a hectic schedule, but by the end of the week, I'm dead to the world. With each new day that we live through, we get a few more black specks showing through.

But when Sunday comes, we can take a step back and look at those black specks or holes and figure out how best to fix them. We can rest from the struggles of everyday life and become rejuvenated on the Sabbath.

Elder Worthlin, stated in 2006 ("Sunday will come")
       "Each of us will have our own Fridays (or those busy weeks,). Those days when the universe itself seems shattered and the shards of our world lie littered about us in pieces. We all experience those broken times when it seems we can never be put together again. We all have those Fridays...But I testify to you in the name of the One who conquered death, Sunday will come. In the darkness of our sorrows (or trials, or exhaustion, busy weeks, etc.) Sunday will come."

The literal Sunday comes every week. Now what are we supposed to do with those Sundays?

I want you to think for a second. What is your general routine for the Sabbath? Are you constantly rushing like you do the rest of the week? Or do you treat the Sabbath as a separate day? Do you take the time to rest fro the world we are constantly being sucked into or are you coloring yourself thin? Are you spending more time on Facebook and Pinterest than you are with the friends and family you have around you?

Satan knows that we need Sundays. He knows how powerful and important the Sabbath can and should be for us. He tempts us with our weaknesses, hoping we will give in because he knows that the more time we spend being busy and distracted, the less time we have to focus on building up our relationship with our Heavenly Father and the Savior, and the less time we will devote to church or focusing on the importance of the sacrament.

Just like tithing, we can set apart time each week and give it back to Him. We can give the Lord equal time.

Even with the constant reminders of the Sabbath, we forget how important it is. Just like Jared said in his testimony last week, Sometimes we have to get caught in a rainstorm  while we are golfing on Sunday to help us realize what we have forgotten.

I want you to think of just one thing that you can do/do differently to improve your Sabbath day observance. Just one thing. It doesn't have to be huge. Now that you have, I want you to actually do it. Nothing will change if you don't do anything differently.

With each small change that we make to better our Sabbath day observance, we can become closer to Heavenly Father. We will find rest from the demands of the world and we will be able to face another hectic week without wearing holes in oursleves.

For one of my jobs, I mow lawns--lots of lawns. So I had some time to think about what I wanted to say while I was mowing and let's be honest, most of you won't remember this talk a month from now, and knowing that information, I was trying to figure out what I wanted you guys to remember. What would I want you guys to know. If I was to die tomorrow, what would I tell you? What would I want my last words to you to be?

They would be this:

  • There is nothing more important than having a relationship with our Savior and we can strengthen it by keeping the Sabbath day holy.
  • There is nothing the Atonement of Jesus Christ can't reach, fix, or heal.
  • There are no rules telling us that we can't ask questions about the gospel, no matter how dumb we think they are.
  • There is nothing that we can't pray and talk to Heavenly Father about.
  • Last: The ONLY place that happiness can be found, is in this Gospel.
I hope that we can each remember to rest from the world on the Sabbath and remember to honor it. It is a great time for us to to focus on our Savior...

I shared my testimony after this. I don't remember what I said, but I know that the Savior loves me and I know that He loves you. I know that prayers are answered, because my prayers have been answered. I know that God lives because I have seen the tender mercies that have been placed in my life at times when I needed them. The Gospel makes me want to be a better person and it brings happiness into my life that I can not find any other way. It brings me hope through the Savior and through the Atonement.


Sunday, February 14, 2016

Love Ya!

In honor of Valentine's day, I thought I'd share a few thoughts on the verbal/written expressions of love. Ever since my nephew died, I vowed to let people know that I loved them (only if I actually do, because love is not something that I will lie about). One of my favorite quotes says, "Don't tell me you love me unless you mean it, because I might do something crazy, like believe it." There are very few things that are as hurtful and soul-ripping as having some express their love to you, only to later discover that they actually weren't sure of what they were saying or having not meant it.

Now, if you think that this post only applies to romantic relationships, you're wrong. This post pertains to all types of relationships; family, friends, romance, and whatever else you can think of. As I have shown my soul to the people around me, I have learned that there are different stages, or levels, of love. They can be determined by an 'I love you', a 'love you', and a 'love ya'. Although all are good when truthfully said, from my experience, they come across as having different depths of meaning.

The 'Love Ya'
This is a casual term of endearment. It is the 'I care about you', but not enough to use more syllables to express my feelings kind of love. It can also be interpreted as the last-minute-thought expression of love; a quick add-on to a statement. It is the level 1 in love stages. Not deeply felt in the soul at the moment, but still has some feeling (maybe it is skin deep?)

The 'Love You'
This is a more heart-felt statement. Instead of the 'ya', they are emphasizing that they do, in fact, love YOU as a person, not just that they note your existence with a 'ya'. The 'love you' is a more a deeply felt love, because they are acknowledging that it is specifically you that they love. They are acknowledging that you are a human being with a qualities that can appreciate. It is a more personalized expression, without the commitment of adding themselves into the situation with the 'I'.

The 'I Love You'
This is the big one. This is the heart and soul of love.The one that takes the relationship, whether it is platonic or romantic, to the next level, and the one that is least understood by a most people, in my opinion. The one that everyone seems to be afraid to say to someone else. Adding themselves into the expression of love means that they actually need to feel something for the other person and be vulnerable enough to say it out loud, running the risk of not having the other person feel the same way.  This is the 'I care about you, and I am willing to prove that I do, in fact, love you'. It is putting you and that other person in the same sentence. It is creating a promise and commitment to another human being that you see yourself with them in any form of a relationship. There is something about adding one simple letter to an expression that adds so much more depth and feeling to it. Emphasizing that 'I' love 'YOU'. I (who I am) loves YOU, just as you are.

Now that I have these defined as vaguely as possible, this doesn't mean that if someone says 'love ya', they don't actually love you in an 'I love you' sort of way, because this is obviously just my opinion (which isn't worth much). I shout 'love ya' to lots of people as we part ways, when I do love them at an 'I love you' level, but I use it as a quick add-on to a statement.

Because I have now made you self-conscious and have made you think twice on how to express your level of love to your friends/family/significant other for the rest of your live, I wish you the Happiest of Valentine's Days.

Love ya!!! (mostly because I don't actually know who is reading this right now...maybe we can take it to the next love level on another post.)

Saturday, February 13, 2016

Within

Within

Life is at times, a little bit rough
You gotta keep your chin up and play it tough
People are watching you; you can't let the know
That the demons within you are starting to show

Put on your mask to hide your fears
That disguise will camouflage all of your tears
Keep your chin up so they won't see
That your heart isn't beating' you are not free

The dark that's inside you is beginning to grow
But keep your mask on and they'll never know
Paint on that smile and a convincing eye flash
Just pretend you're okay, not turning to ash

Keep your mask on, and build up that wall
So your heart can't be broken or crushed from a fall
Suppress the shadows that try to creep out
Don't show them emotion or even your doubt

Pretend it is fine that you are alone
Brush off that hurt that you are unknown
Whisper a prayer as you lie in your bed
And hope that the demons don't answer instead

Hide the pain that seeps through your eyes
Put on your mask as you say your goodbyes
Don't show them your scars or the pain that runs deep
Put on your mask to hide the secrets you keep

Show them you're fine, prove that you'll breathe
Hide behind the disguise until the day that they leave
You can't let them see what lies under your skin
Even you can't run from the darkness you're in

Build up a facade to hide all the gloom
So all they will see is a flower in bloom
Tell them you're alright and keep your chin high
Be strong on the surface and reach for the sky

Your mask will protect you from all of the sting
It will guard you from the weight of the pain that they bring
But what if the facade weakens and you are left bare?
You demons are not something that you wish to share.

What if it slips and darkness exposed?
How will you keep yourself ever composed?
But what if it happens? What if they see
That you are not perfect, that you are not free?

Maybe they won't laugh, perhaps they might care
Maybe they've always noticed the demons in there
Maybe they've known, and can see how you've tried
And maybe, just maybe, they have their own demons inside.

3/29/2014


Wednesday, January 13, 2016

Broken Goodbye

I hate to watch us part,
but you see, I cannot stay.
Our lives have changed directions,
and our paths are night and day.

I have turned to face the east,
and you stand facing to the west;
our backs against each other,
the split's tearing at my chest.

I am sad to change my heading,
and it hurts to let you go,
but our fates no longer merge
into the future I hoped to know.

I thought we'd walk together
into a friendship, never ending,
but our paths divided sooner
than the promise you'd been vending.

So I guess this is goodbye,
but hopefully not for long.
Maybe I'll see you later.
Maybe I am wrong.

If our paths do forget to cross,
and this our final meeting,
know you bruised my heart,
but you can't stop its beating.

1/13/2016